I finally have the time (and discipline) and motivation to blog again. 

Since I promised to blog about my concert in my previous  post long ago. Here goes.

Alright. It's going to be a short one about the concert..it was quite some time ago. 

So all the planning and preparation for the concert, the last ever concert I'll probably have with my choir. I loved being their leader, now that I think about choir quite frequently when I'm singing mainstream songs. I skipped all the studying and shit, went all out for this concert. I wanted it to be the perfect one.

It didn't turn out to be perfect. At least, that was what I thought about at that time. We screwed up quite badly. We didn't meet the expectation of our conductor, Ms Lim. She scolded us midway and the choir was down, esp the girls. That brought down the morale of the choir so much.

"Don't go back to be the timid choir again!" 

She always associated us to the world timid and say that we lack confidence. We indeed lacked confidence. I started reflecting if it was my fault that the choir didn't do well for the first half concert. I wanted to redeem myself as their president. The choir has to be better than that. I spoke to them. All the training. all the scoldings. I knew we were better than that.

"Choir. Now is not the time to give up. Now is not the time to be sad. Now is not the time to say 'oh shit. I screwed up'. Now is the time to believe in yourselves, believe in the people standing right next to you. All the practices we have gone through, how many times have Ms Lim scolded us and praised us. This is the time to rise up. We are more than prepared for this. I know we had a bad start but we can still make it for the second half. We just  have to do it as a choir. Feel the music and go with the flow."

I talked to the choir. Honestly, to me, it was more of an emotional talk. Like bidding farewell to the choir. We improved after the mini 'pep' talk but Ms Lim wasn't that impressed. She thanked me after that. It was all I need. She said that I wasn't the leader she had in mind. I was too slack. She wanted to me to grow. (not literally). I really miss choir.

With the SH2'13. Thick and thin with this bunch.

I miss us..a lot.

And here you have it, with the two conductors.

Choir has been a large part of my life. Maybe I'll join the alumni choir or something. I don't know if I can still sing though. (shout so much in NS)

Ohgawd. I'm feeling so nostalgic right now. Stay tuned for the next post!