I can't help but think about the whole theme of "Leadership". So yes, this post is going to be about leadership in various aspects of our lives. "please lah, we can read the post title"

Let me continue with what I have understood from the video. (I didn't watch PM Lee's speech but the video I watched was featuring what happened after he made his speech). Do note that what I say regarding my personal life experience could be relatable to the speech and Singapore Politics but it is totally unintentional unless I explicitly state so. I dislike people coming up to me and debating with me on what I wrote. this actually happened due to one of my facebook posts

Apparently, PM Lee said something regarding the politics in Singapore, about how it should be constructive. Having no knowledge of what he is planning to do in the near future (since I didn't watch his speech), I like the term "constructive politics". Now, I always had a thing for the word "constructive". I believe that all comments should at least be somewhat constructive. Like what PM Lee said, a opposition party should not only be pointing out what is lacking but should also have a direction or at least some solutions to the problems. I cannot agree less. 

Being a leader in quite a number of areas in the recent years, in my choir and my BPT in particular, I have always come across people who just criticise and yet have no idea how to alleviate the problems and the issues. By just commenting and pointing out the bad parts of a project or a system is not going to help. Having an opposing view is good, in fact, it is crucial. These people keep the group on track and "motivate" them. But I feel that everyone is forgetting that these people having are also part of the whole group which is to have a common goal and direction, to improve the community, CCA, squad, and in whatever fits. What they are doing is just going to create discontent and friction between both parties and the other non-committee members. They will start to lose faith in the government and shit will happen soon after. I mean, just look at Thailand's situation.

Next up, I shall talk about decision making in a group of people. This is definitely applicable to team games (I love DotA 2) and these are also insights I learnt from the game. I always tell some of my friends, "if everyone wants to lead, no one does." The confusion caused would take over and even if a decision is finally made, the group won't be entirely supportive right? Why call it a group then? Why not call it a number of individuals? Everyone wants to be the superstar. Everyone wants the feeling of calling shots. But no one wants the responsibility of the consequences. Ultimately, the group of people will just push the blame to the head of the group when something goes wrong. These people, on the other hand, would not hesitate to claim credit when the outcome turns out to be good. 

Up till this point, I guess some of you would not understand what I'm saying. Maybe you guys haven't had these problems. I used to be someone who sought advice and tried to "be welfare" to everyone so that everyone is happy. This is however, impossible. sorry Adidas! There bound to be someone unhappy and doubtful of you. In the end, you have to make a decision. I was bad at this when I was starting out my term as my choir's president. I'm sure anyone who knew what was it like in my choir would agree with me. I'm not afraid to share this because I know that I have changed for the better (isn't this the ultimate aim of learning or challenging yourself? To become better?)

When I was in my squad in BPT, everyone commented on how jialat (slang for shitty) our squad I.C. is. He was my buddy so you can imagine how sad I was. HAHAHA. I kind of feel bad for him because how he felt was probably how I felt when I first started out as the president of my choir. Everyone has the ideal leader in their eyes and they will constantly compare you with that ideal figure and even if you were actually good at some area, this good aspect would be covered up and seen as something bad in another person's eye. I have said in my previous post that you cannot satisfy everyone. I'm going to add on with just do your best and do what you deem is correct and you'll be fine. You may not be able to face some people when something happens but at least, you know that you have did what you could and can face yourself. （what we call 对得起自己）

Afterall, the life is yours. People will be there to criticise you. People will be there to put you down. People will be there to see only the bad in you no matter how hard you try. But you don't need someone who see the good in you. What you and all of us need is a person who sees the bad in us and yet trusts and supports us. That I believe is what true leadership, love and friendship is all about, gaining support from those who sees and don't mind. 

Haven't met such a person? Well, the word is faith, ya! Have faith and believe. When it comes, it comes. :P

Andddd now finally something about my life.

I'm starting to find my job cool even though how potentially dangerous it can be and/or become. I mean I'm willing to be in such risk if I can be sure that the people I'm keeping behind bars are not going to be living amongst people I love. 

Parts and parcels of my life are beginning to link up. I can feel myself improving emotionally and mentally and it feels pretty damn awesome.  

To the haters, before you call me stupid and deem me as a typical teenage boy, someone who is obsessed with gaming, do think of the time and effort I have put in to realise what I share with you guys on my blog, reflecting on my past etc. Now to break it to you guys. Like I have briefly mentioned in one of my posts, I am a gaming enthusiast and would want to make it in the local esports scene. Gaming has always been something for me. It allows me to forget everything that is happening to me, all the stress and sorrow, everything. This is definitely the case for most gamers out there. I used to be very defensive when people say that I'm addicted to games. Maybe at that time, I was. Now, I'm fine with it because I know I'm not. If you asked me to pick between going out with my close friends and gaming, I would definitely pick the former. Needless to say, picking games over going out with my family.

Now, having said all that, about how I support the government and all. I'm thinking of migrating in the future. Why? Because I just love the cold weather. Maybe if I can afford it, I will travel the world in the 2 months I have after I ORD. Here are some pictures of me overseas. 

Turned out making me nostalgic and wanted to travel right nowww! hahaha oh wells. National Service. It's two years of protecting people I love and the place I call home. 

Signing off

JJ!