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Note: I wrote this on the week of the release of the A level results.

Before I continue, I would like to thank those who asked if I'm doing okay.
Like many other posts, this post is about my A level results. Most of the posts would be on how well or moderately well the results are. Mine is the opposite. I failed As, mainly because I failed GP. My other grades aren't great either.

Few months before, a few posts written by students from the top JCs were trending all over the social media websites. They are about how the students were expected to do well but then didn't. I guess I am just like them. Doing well in Os, getting into a good school and yet, not delivering the results I was expected to.

I can say that the past few days have been very troubling for me.

At the start, although I didn't expect to get such results, I felt okay because I really did what I can at the given situation and time. Then, thoughts just flooded my mind. Did I really study hard? Did I play too much? Was I too distracted?

Furthermore, some of my squad mates were just being assholes rubbing it in and saying stuff like it's usually the people from the normal JCs that do well, right in front of me. Leaving me just speechless and helpless, unable to say anything. I understood that they are immature and tried to ignore it, but my limit was only so much.

After I rung up a few of my closest friends and my teachers, I felt so much better.

I had the choice of retaking the exam, as a student in NJC again, or as a private candidate. Or I can go overseas to study after taking an English exam to prove my proficiency in the English Language.

I finally decided to wait and see if my application to UWA is accepted. If I am, then good. I won't have to retake. If I'm not, then I will take again as a private candidate. My teachers asked me not to retake as a student again because that's just quite a waste.

I keep telling myself that I'm better than this. I must stay strong. My life will be a story to tell. I will become an example to those who didn't do well for A levels.

The question is not if I will become what I want to be. The question is if I am willing to be.

Shall stop here. Bye.


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